Hi...I feel very weird and humbled to be on this site. I have never been this down and out in my 39 short years. I am a single mother of four, lost my job several months ago and was working for a friend up until two weeks ago at her office. I have nothing at this point, under my tree or in my bank. Not even food. I am so depressed and ashamed I feel like a failure as a mother. No matter how hard I try the bills just keep coming and I cant seem to catch up. We are living off the basics now, water,electric, garbage. I have no heat and haven't for some time. Praise the inventor of the space heater:). I don't know what to tell my kids. They don't understand. I have always pulled a rabbit out of my hat no matter what. I have the hat, but no rabbit this time. My 16 yr. old son battled depression last year and attempted suicide. As a result of my caring for him I lost my job two days before my six year anniversary. It kills me that Im not working. I have applied to numerous places, revised my resume, even applied for jobs Im overqualified for and nothing. I just got a rejection email from Lowes. Maybe it's my age? Although it seems Im young it may look different on paper? I dont know. Im grasping at straws now. It can leave a person very discouraged to say the least. Well, I just needed to vent my thoughts/emotions for a while. I have no family and few friends and I will not breakdown around my kids who truly are the lights of my entire being. If no one reads this, oh well, if someone does and can relate, you are not alone. It could be any one of us anytime. Thanks for the shoulder....Me
